Miserable DAy!!!
i thought alot, I hav try my very very best to letting myself feel comforty with her… but she doesn’t seen to noe ahaha.... how sad..... i feel vexed that for so many mths being a colleague with her... she a straight forward person... tat’s good. but tactless that make things worst.. at first didnt want to comment anything abt her... coz i wanna consider her as my frd too... ahm seen like if i didnt write out or.... i will going to die le!Why is she so kpo?!?!??! Is my problem or wat??!?!? I cant tolerate any more.....she would remember very words I say and if I told her any events that I will attend or going to attend or basically anything.la.. she will not fail to inform or should I say count down for me whether I like it or not... her way of keep reminding me make me feel alot of pressure..just a topic please drop it!!! dun need to keep reminding reminding day after days!!!!. shut up!!!
Even when i msging my frd,... so being stupid I told her once.... then comes my nightmare everytime my phone rings she will say oh ur frd~ msg u ah... regardless my msg is from whom... or whether it’s her business anot!!!!! I feel she is trying to invade into my privacy... not even that she keep asking why my frd Ky is not coming to lunch??? How I noe???? Almost Everytime, Ky didnt come she will ask 1 time she is in the office or she go out eat??? Why?? Its not my business or her??!! Ky cant make mean cant make it lah… so??? why so nosey??!?! i dun qn my frd why they are not free.. if they wanna say they will say it themselves..... omg!! Is all auntie like that!?!??!?but she just 32! sigh?! or maybe i already get enough of her liao...
Plus alot more... she doesnt like to eat snacks( eat only 2 pices for the whole pack) or biscuits or cakes hahaha or chocolates (she will throw away the bar of chocolate that she only eat 1/4 of it as she say she cant finish it hahaha that will not happen to me and my frd ahaha) or fast food or go pub or go watch movie in the cinema or shops for clothes(coz she say that her clothes are all given by her relatives so she dun hav to buy any clothes hahahahaha)..... too many..i cant list out all... She got alot of principal i’m ok with that but too much le..abit stingy n everytime speaks like she is the boss...yeah so~ she had been a boss before SOOOOOOO~ doesnt mean she can talk to me this way~..she like to say she will do this way lah she will never do wat lah.. like i’m idiot..
AHHH~ She seen to do alot of things behind my back... she and my boss are frds i shld say that.. hahaha noe my stress liao??~~ Recently we are doing a project... is already for printing... then my boss’s bro say to her, can she help him do the plate asking her help as that project is mine!! For polite or anything lah if my project got problem shld that person told me??? if not he told her she olso got to be polite told me abt it and not she do it and didnt let me noe abt it... I only found out when she take my things to go plate!!! then i say why u take it then she told me all abt it..... Is that the right way of doing things??? amazing?!? i still joke with her say ahaha icic tok why u take my things so i need to find him to confirm again anyway IT’S MY PROJECT!! I feel tat she didnt respect me lo sigh...
So boring whenever i wan to chat abt movies in cinema she will keep say she dun go la, wat waste money lah.. wat to many ppl lah.. too noise la... sigh.. only watch DVD at home... sigh... Wanna talk abt food she willl blah blah her way of eatin healthy lah... cant eat this cant eat that.... wat she dun hav urge to eat any junk foods. But still can say she will eat alittle abit lah....... alot of her explaining or excuses lah..She like to take advantage of the convenience.. when I didnt say of helping her to buy any thing she will say can help me buy this buy that if u can... I dunno why i just dislike to help her!!!! I can buy for any1 but just no her.... SO damn vexed no same common topic/hobbies or a slighty liking of anything olso dun hav.... very de difficult for me to chat with her... i consider myself very easy going.. but to her i got to bow to her!!!! I lost! sigh...
Recently, I going on some diet wanna throw away a few kilos... so just say few times abt it.. she will talk abt the diet topic over lunch or when we are going home... I’m ok with it........ then she start her stories abt she have never thought of losing weight.... losing weight to her will never happen...coz she seldom weight herself, saying that she didnt maintance olso like that....not much of change to her... then keep reminds me that she is in her expectable weight range so no need to lose weight... then topics of why woman wanna lost weight lah... then tell me that how many % of the fats and how many % of carbo~ for foods ... BTW I DIDNT SAY U NEED TO LOST WEIGHT LO~ ?!?!#@?#$?@?#@!$?#$$?#$#$?!?@#?!@& (ahhahahahaaaa feel like to saying some vuglar langauge hahaha) or I DIDNT ASK FOR UR OPINION!!!! I olso never say i need ur remind of how expectable weight u are!!
A very different person that i ever meet!!! totally different from my life!!! out of my life i could say. I shld say i’m a very choosy person towards frd... guess if she is not my colleague... i will not talk to her at all... or show any friendly attitude... or say so much!!!! She definitely will not be in my frd category slot.... sorry i’m very strict with that... those who i doesnt talk to or ignore completely is confirm condemn by me.... dun think of talking to me ever!!! hahahaa....
Till now i tell myself dun say too much if u dun wan ur life to be invaded... It been a veri hard time for me now to actually keep alot of things to myself... cant say too much sigh... i’m trying to suicide myself really... its hard! I’m too chatty plus i like to share alot i mean alot!!!!! Ah~~~~~~ Somebody help me!!! hahahahaaa.... guess i’m going to suicide soon..... hahahahaa
Sometime i dont understand myself why i always feel so angry with those ppl that i shld voice out but i didnt...only hav the guts to write in my blog...... why???!!! And those i have complain didnt noe that i found fault in them...hhahaa how ironic!!! Ahm, think i’m being a very nice person i didnt show to them... a very different side of me that till now i olso dun quite understand why I being so nice for??? Is it that i’m trying to be nice and polite or i just dun wan to hurt the person feeling??? maybe i just like to keep all feeling to myself... end up i’m so miserable... and vexed.... ahhh~~a person like me who doesnt noe how to say a straight NO to that person i could be too friendly or too nice!!!!!! sigh keep telling myself i dun wan to be a friendly person... ahm why is that so hard!!!! Being force to the situation i still can smile and chat with tat person like none of the above have happen hahaha really waka rimasen!!! Maybe i’m just a plain stupid idiot moroon that still living~ ha~
Really I’m glad that i meet other colleagues in my workin place so that my life is not total miserable... at all... all thanks to Ky, Adline n Rgina.... ahahaha I miss Rac and Mdy la!
laine signed out on 29/6/2006 wat a miserable day~ continue miserable on 30/6/2006 sigh think can write a essay out of it if continue hahaha
posted by Laine @ 12:15 PM
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